Yes BTIL. I will be in Washington.
We’re still figurin’ out the dates though. But it will be Dec/Jan no doubt :]
I hate how the time zones we’re in right now work. You’re sleeping already because it’s late where you’re at. I’m up, and it’s late where I’m at too, but not as late. If you were to be up with me right now, the sun would already be rising where you’re at. I hate how when I have a bad night, I can’t just call you and wake you up and ask you to stay up with me. What good would it be if we’re both losing sleep? So I stay up by myself, trying to figure out things to keep me occupied until I can feel tired enough to give sleep one more shot.
Sometimes I get mad when you don’t pick up your phone, or answer skype at night, or you’re too tired to stay up with me. But then I realize what time it is, so I don’t push it. Even when you were here, when you were tired at night, I was upset, just because you didn’t stay up with me sometimes when I tried to wake you up. It was like, when you’re far away, I can understand why you wouldn’t wake up. But you were right in front me, still not up with me.
Sometimes I wish it was backwards, and it was you having the hard time sleeping. I honestly whine too much to myself at night thinking up so many things while I lie awake. It gets so hard to sleep. I wish I knew what it felt like to hear, “It’s okay babe, if you wake up, I’ll still be up, and I’ll still be here.” But I always find myself saying that. It’s always me. And YEAH, I sound a little selfish right now, but it’s fifteen months of sleepless nights, and I’m so tired. Not tired as in sleepy, tired as in me always being the one.
I’m tired of being the one who loses sleep because no one is awake to ease my mind. At night, I’m alone. No matter who I have in my life, no matter who is in my house sleeping, I’m alone.
It’s stupid, half of it doesn’t make sense, & it is offensive. You may think it’s funny, but it’s really not. I’m not gay or anything, but I have a lot of gay friends. They are actually some of the coolest people I know. In my opinion, the majority of gay people are really understanding because they know what it feels to be judged and hated on for no reason. & Number 7, oh please, gay people had to be born somehow, and obviously it was from a straight couple.
- Sweet Tarts - You’re super duper sweet, and I just can’t get enough of you! :]
- Li Hing Mui Watermelon Candy - I can only be around you for so long before I get sick & tired of you.
- Oreos - Because you’re the whitest black girl that I know.
- Sour Patch Kids - Cause you’re mean, but then you say sorry right after.
- Haribo Rainbow Frogs - I love how colorful your personality is.
I don’t know how some couples take each other’s presence for granted. They fuss and fight all day, and yet there are long distance couples out there struggling to make it work, even without the touch of their significant other. I think the worst feeling you could have when you’re in love is not being able to hold them and be there for them when they really need it. The sight of seeing them hurt, or hearing them sad, and you wish you could do everything in your power to make them feel better, but you can’t because you’re miles away. And in the happiest of times too, you just wanna be there to celebrate with them, and have fun and make memories together. But you’re stuck behind your computer screen, or on your cellphone. And all you can do is just observe and listen, you can’t really be there to hug them and kiss them and take pictures with them. But it’s all worth the wait, I’ll struggle now just so me and you can be happy when we can finally be together.
I’m steady missin’ you.
DOMO ARIGATOOOOO (: <3
Well it just depends on how you view it. That’s my opinion at least.
I think if you love someone, it’s just like loving your family, or loving your friends. You love them, you have love for them, but it’s not the kind of love that everyone looks for in their life. It’s nice to love someone, and have someone love you. But I think to be IN love with someone is when you find something special IN that person that makes you love them, I don’t even know. Haha. :]] <3
This was taken before I followed you back tho’ (:
Bitch are you dumb? Did I not just fax you something last week? I’m sure if you asked where your fax machine came from, it came from here in Japan, a slight chance it could be China.
The fuck man, come on.
Watchin’ New Jack City, haha.
What can I say? It’s the truth.
What the fuck? You can’t cancel that shit, it’s on the calendar! My mom said that they said there is no trick or treating because of the weather.
You’re about to piss off a lotttt of hungry little kids.